Creative Expression

Its been a while.

2008-04-01T18:25:42Z

Its been a while since I posted I've been busy with work and lots of running around. I've kept up with other's journals I just haven't done anything on mine. Anyways so here goes since its been a month now.

I now hate the idea of being an independent contractor, I like my job I just hate having to do the taxes for it... Its so much nicer when the company does them for me but oh well that's how I got the job so I can't really complain too much I guess, it just sucked having to pay $1,000 for the last 3 months of '07 after my other taxes were taken into account because no one would give me the proper forms to pay my taxes quarterly. I got the forms now so its not so bad.

I don't think i mentioned it but I cut my hair in February I just couldn't deal with the long hair getting all over the place so I went back to my spiky hair that I've had for so many years off and on again.

We finally got a second designer on the project again so I can share some of the workload now instead of having the whole game fall on just me design wise. I've started him out on one of the levels I created from scratch, he seems to be doing good hopefully he will keep it up. I feel less stressed but only slightly since we have 10 days until Alpha and we don't even have 2 of the levels up and running correctly (gotta love last minute changes and scrapping level ideas), let alone our level select stuff, but I have faith and think we'll pull it off at least I'll be killing myself with work to make sure on the design side of things its all there and I know the programmers will as well since they have been through out the whole project.

As to my car that was wrecked in December it has since then been stolen back in early February, mind you the car was not drivable due to the driver side front end being pushed up into the belt assembly and pushing up against the tire as well as the battery being dead. I'm still waiting on a court date... I hate how long the courts take. On the plus side I bought another car, an 08 Lancer. So now I don't have to ride the bus for 2-3 hours to get to and from work and I can see my girlfriend without having to rent a car or have her drive up to see me most of the time.

Hmmm, lets see On the 24th was our one month-aversary, we went out, shopped for stuff, had dinner, and spent time together. Then on the 28-29th I got us a hotel room, we had a picnic lunch/dinner on the beach watching the sunset, and then went back to the room where she had set the room up nicely with rose pedals and candles. I thought I was the romantic type and my girlfriend had said she wasn't as into it as I was but after letting her make the plans I have to admit she set the bar up pretty high and I am still quite impressed. I love her so much! We've had a few little spats but nothing serious I think mostly because we're a bit scared of being hurt since we both have rocky pasts but we are crazy about each other.

I think that just about covers my past month.

dreadenkith @ 2008-02-25T11:30:00

2008-02-25T19:43:59Z

I just had to share because i'm super happy right now and I think its amazingly awesome haha :) The girl I've been dating well I wanted it to be more and so ya when I asked she said yes so I have a girlfriend :) I'm so very happy. Haha I'm such a dork...

Oh and on a geeky note I got the replacement shell for my old DS and well after the swap the touch screen isn't working haha I think I broke it for good. I've been too busy to really have time to fiddle around with it.

Crazy week

2008-02-11T19:20:24Z

Ok so I've almost completely neglected lj, sorry about that but ya its been pretty crazy for me past few days. I've spent most of the week talking to a girl who we both seem to be crazy about each other the more we talk haha. But um ya I'll just do a quick summary about the week, at least the interesting parts haha.

Monday: I got my DS lite skin, now just to wait for the actual DS so I can put it on haha. I'm such a geeky dork >.< haha.

Tuesday: Nothing outa the ordinary happened.

Wednesday: Total geek day >.> I got my replacement shell for my DS, just waiting the tools to see about swapping the cases haha I have a metallic baby blue shell now :) <3 baby blue. Ok well I'm waiting until I get my new DS lite haha since i don't want to break my only DS for now. I was saddened that my favorite taco truck wasn't there when I went to push my car from one side of the street to the other. The girl and I make plans to meet for the first time in person on Sunday, pretty much just made my week.

Thursday: Usual day at work, I get off work to go push my car back across the street so I don't get a ticket. When I'm heading over to my car I saw the Taco truck was there, I got some delicious tacos haha. Then went with my friends to an arcade and played In the Groove (like DDR) for about an hour then went home. My friend calls me up and says "Um, I wasn't really checking but I think your car is missing." Now mind you my car's battery is dead and the front end driver's side is pushed in which caused the alternator to push into the belt system thus making my car undrivable. So I was skeptical and just left it at that, way too excited about sunday at that point to really take it seriously.

Friday: In the morning my friend calls me to let me know she drove by where my car should be and it really was gone. Still didn't get me down, all I could really do is laugh I mean my car that was in a crash and doesn't run got stolen, I'm sorry that's just hilarious. At work the programmers showed me how to build our game on different platforms, too cool haha so now I can break my stuff in even more ways.

Saturday: I finally head to the police station and file a stolen car report, the cop was kinda wondering why it took me 2 days to file but um well once i explained the whole situation ya he stopped questioning although he got a lot more quiet, i think he was afraid to laugh at the situation.

Sunday: my friends and I went snowboarding for the first half of the day (a month later than I had planned to go but w/e we finally went haha) when we head back from mt. high we hit traffic, normally not a big deal but i had a date... so not cool so i was really short fused getting back, thankfully my friend had a GPS system and I kinda knew alternate routes because when we were on the 10 seeing a sign that said to expect an hour delay to downtown LA i almost cried, I was already cutting it close from the traffic we had hit on the 15. we found a way around the mess on the 10 and i drove a bit rushed to get back a bit later than i wanted but I dropped my friend off and was able to make it to the date a few minutes late :( aside from being a bit late and a bit shy since she had gone with friends and i'm not too good around people i don't know, it went well :)

So that was my past week which I must say was pretty crazy but definitely ended quite nicely :) And this week is going to be a crazy/nice week too haha, my DS lite should be coming in soon, my xbox 360 has been repaired and should be delivered this week which means Guitar Hero and Rock Band fun should begin/resume whenever i have free time haha, and best of all another date with the girl :)

Fears?

2008-01-31T20:49:33Z

So I'm bored and decided to list my fears at least the ones I can think of since I've never really done this and some random bits of stuff about them...Will you play along by adding your own? I'm even looking up the name of the phobias haha.
http://www.phobialist.com/

Autophobia (Fear of being alone) - This is probably my biggest fear ever I haven't had to deal with it for a long time fortunately but usually when I'm feeling completely alone I get really depressed and anxious and well unhealthy thoughts cross my mind.

Pediophobia (Fear of dolls) - This isn't too bad for me, I can be around dolls and some I have no problems with but I refuse to stay in a room with a doll for too long. I always think they are gonna come to life and some how kill me even though I could break them o.O

Acrophobia (Fear of heights) - This one is a bit odd for me because I can handle being on high floors in buildings or in planes without a problem but if I feel like I might fall either cuz its not very safe or if I'm looking out of like a full glass window I start to panic. I think its more because I have this small part of me that still has the childish mentality of wondering if I could fly, if I stand near the edge of a rooftop I have to fight back the desire to jump off and find out. This one really sucks on ski lifts lol.

Aichmophobia (Fear of needles) - This one isn't too bad I only freak out if I'm watching the needle go into me. My stomach goes all crazy and I get extremely light headed, almost passed out once while getting blood taken.

Ok those are all I can think of at least for now.

Meh... bored

2008-01-30T20:11:23Z

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... You're on my list, so I want to know you better! And what's more, I'm feeling a bit isolated and estranged after con and traveling, and I'd really like a mailbox full of fluff for a day or two. So if you've time and inclination, click below, and fill 'er out.

BE HONEST! COPY FROM HERE THEN SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A COMMENT THEN if you want to, repost the empty questions in your own blog. If you don't want to, then by all means ignore the suggestion, as it probably means you have better things to use the time and brainpower on.

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A.
2) What was your dream growing up?
A.
3) What talent do you wish you had?
A.
4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.
5) Favorite vegetable?
A.
6) What was the last book you read?
A.
7) What zodiac sign are you?
A.
8) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
A.
9) Worst habit?
A.
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.
11) What is your favorite sport?
A.
12) Do you have a negative or optimistic attitude?
A.
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A.
16) Do you have any pets?
A.
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.
18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
A.
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A.
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.
22) What color eyes do you have?
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23) Ever been arrested?
A.
24) Bottle or can soda?
A.
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.
27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A.
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A.
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
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30) Do you swear a lot?
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31) Biggest pet peeve?
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32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
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33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.
35) Do you believe in God?
A.
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A.

Cosplay Accessories :D

2008-01-25T02:15:57Z

YAY! just got my dog tag for my cid outfit for anime expo :D YAY! attention to detail haha I'm such a dork -_- at least a happier dork now lol. So now I'm almost done with the stuff for my Cid outfit which was supposed to be my back up costume >.> I really should get started on Vicent haha but I like how my Cid is turning out :/ decisions decisions...

Yup that photo looks like crap but well my phone's camera is crap and I'm at work haha but the tag reads:
HIGHWIND,
CID
B
SHERRA
AVALANCHE

Random quizes to pass the boredum

2008-01-23T21:11:55Z

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people! Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)
You attract geeks!
You attract unstable people!
You attract rednecks!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract models!
What type of person do you attract? Quizzes for MySpace

Which country should you live in? Your Result: United kingdom You are very proper and have good maners. You look down to women a little and like tea and coffie. You also love the queen. And get used to be called chap
Mexico
America
China
Which country should you live in? Take More Quizzes

Quite ironic in a few ways lol.

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Gamer/Computer Nerd You enjoy the visual stimulants of a video game, chatting on AIM, or reading online comics. Most of these types of nerds are considered dirty who lack hygeine, of course they always end up being the ones who make a crapload of money. And don't worry, that's just a stereotype; I'm not calling you dirty. ^_~
Social Nerd
Anime Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
Drama Nerd
Literature Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Musician
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

Ok enough quizzes haha I should get back to breaking the game I'm working on. Er I mean totally making work...ya...making it work...ok maybe after a few hours of figuring out how I broke it by adding new stuff haha.

Meme Questionare

2008-01-23T00:37:34Z

From rockstarjoker4 who got it from evie_tessadded
!. Leave me a casual comment of no particular significance, like a lyric to your favorite song.
2. I will respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better.
3. Update your LJ with the answers to these questions.
4. Include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in your own post.
5. When others respond with a desultory comment, you will ask them five questions.
6. Feel free to ask me five questions, about whatever you like, and I will respond (evie_tessadded this, but I really like it, so I kept it! :)

My Answers:

1. What was the worst movie you've ever seen?
I'd have to say Alone in the Dark, I know I rented the movie and that I stayed awake while watching it but I can't remember a single thing from the movie.

2. If you had to give up one of your senses, what would it be?
Sight. I enjoy it very much and I think would be the one I'd miss the most so I'd choose to lose it so that I'd be able to appreciate my other senses more.

3. What's the best place to eat in LA?
Hmm that's hard to say especially since it depends on what you'd like to eat. As to my favorites I'd have to say:
Cuban = Baracoa Cuban Cafe (Best Ropa Viega I've had thus far)
Hamburger = Hal's Bar and Grill in Venice (A burger that's seasoned nicely and cooked to order.)
Tacos = A taco truck that parks on Riverside Drive under the 2 freeway.
Other than those I can't really think of any place that has food I've tried that's worthy of "best" or even going out of my way to go there when I have a craving.

4. If you could go on one date with a celebrity, who would it be, why, and what would you do?
Haha, um, well I'll go with Christina Ricci hehe, I always had a thing for her eyes. Something about them I just can't help but keep staring. She also seems really interesting from the little that is publicly known. As to where, I dunno to a coffee shop and then up to Malibu hills to watch the sunset, that way I could find out if she's really as interesting as I think and well to stare at her eyes :)

5. If you were gonna pick one place to live for the rest of your life, where would it be?
Japan, I've always been interested in the culture, architecture, and ways of life.

dreadenkith @ 2008-01-21T17:50:00

2008-01-22T02:06:16Z

I'm quite excited that I finally got over my writer's block of sorts. I guess I should explain a bit haha. My mind wanders a lot and thus a lot of stories pop into my head granted most never get completed just started. Well for about a month now I guess I've just been going through so much stuff it kept me from coming up with any stories which was somewhat depressing for me. Just a first draft but that's about as far as any of my stories ever get when I call them completed enough to share ^_^ I hope you enjoy.

There was a knock on the door. He put the TV on mute and got up from his bed grumbling “Who is it?” There was no response. Scratching his head wondering if he actually heard the knock he repeated louder “Who is it?” There was another knock on the door. “Real funny… Who’s at my door at this time of the night?” As he stood behind the door he leaned in to look through the peep hole. “Quit messing around who’s there?” He looked around trying to see someone near the door but he couldn’t see anyone through the peep hole. There was a giggle and another knock. He grabbed the door knob and flung the door back as he stepped out to look around. “What the…” He stood there at his door dumbfounded at the fact that there wasn’t anyone around. He turned around and grabbed his door preparing to close it as he heard another giggle behind him. A young woman was standing there as he turned around.

“Hi, there!” She said as she waved her hand rapidly. “So I know you’re probably wondering what’s happening but I’m here now.” She pointed into the apartment as she smiled. “You know it’s not polite to keep a person outside without inviting them in.”

He stood in front of his door blocking the path inside, “I don’t even know your name let alone know who you are, why should I let you in?”

“Hmm, well you know me sort of… I’m the girl you’ve dreamed about. I’m here to be the girl of your dreams. Anything you want me to be I can be it.” She smirked as she lifted her hand and slid her finger down her neck to her chest stopping at her blouse. “And anything you want me to do, I’ll gladly do.” She giggled again as she winked at him.

He laughed, “Well then if you’re my dream come true I guess you should step right in.” He stepped aside and showed her into the apartment. He shut the door and walked her into the living room, offered her a seat on the sofa, and then asked, “Would you like to drink anything? Wait! Let me guess… Some Lemonade?” He chuckled as he walked into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator door waiting for a response.

She exclaimed, “Oh I’d love some if you don’t mind!”

He handed her a glass, “So if you’re supposed to be the girl of my dreams then I guess I shouldn’t have any questions and we’ll be perfect for each other right?”

She set her cup down as she laughed, “It’s ok, you must have questions, I don’t think you’d believe me without knowing me, you aren’t that kind of man.” She sat up and looked into his eyes, “Feel free to ask me anything, I’ll keep no secrets from you.”

He raised his eyebrow as he smiled. Thinking to himself, “Nice answer. I wonder what’s going on.” He chuckled and asked, “So who sent you?”

“What do you mean sent me? No one sent me, I’m here because I want to make your dreams come true.” She slid over to sit closer to him, “You don’t really believe I’m here because I want to make your dreams come true? Ok maybe this will make it easier to believe.” She leaned towards him and whispered into his ear, “You know that fetish you have for um…” she smiled as she pointed to her knee high black leather boots wrapped around her silky smooth legs. “I’m also wearing matching lace lingerie just like you really like.” She licked her lips as she slid her hand up the inside of his thigh, “So do you have anymore questions about me? I really meant it when I said I was here to make your dream come true.” She smiled as she looked into his eyes, “So how about we start making those dreams come true.”

He blushed as he shifted in his seat pulling his leg away, “You can’t be serious, I must be dreaming, I still don’t even know your name and you expect me to live out my fantasies with me just because you say you are my dream girl?” He scratched his head as he looked at her for a moment, thinking to himself, “What the fuck is going, this can’t be happening, how does she know about my fetishes or my fantasies. Could this be real?”

“Why not? You’ve been alone for so long and all you wanted was someone to be with, to fill that emptiness in your heart, a companion. Damn it aren’t you tired of being alone and feeling depressed every night you go to sleep alone and wake up the next day hugging a pillow as if it were a person. I’m tired of that feeling… Just roll with it this could be what you’ve wanted. We’ll be happy and no longer alone.”

“It can’t be this easy, why now? Something feels weird about this.”

“Who cares if she knows your fantasies then she knows what you want and what will make you happy. What else matters?”

“Oh! Sorry about that my mind got away from me.” He dropped his head into his hands as he sighed. “This can’t be real, who are you? Why are you doing this?” He pulled his hands over his head pulling his long bangs back away from his face as he looked at her waiting for an answer.

“Well my name is Elizabeth.” She smiled at him, “As to why I’m doing this well I guess I should just be honest about it, you like that right? I want you to give me a son.”

“Wait! I don’t even know you and you want me to give you a child?!” Sighing he dropped his head once again. “Why is this happening to me? Why now? I can’t handle this, my heart has been through too much suffering. I can’t open up again.”

She moved closer to him now on her knees at his feet she reached and held his hand. “It’s ok to be scared but I can make your dreams come true I can be that dream girl you want. All I want is a son. You’d have a lover, a family, isn’t that what you want? I’d never break your heart, it won’t suffer, and it will be filled with joy and love once again.”

He lifted his head and looked at her, “There has to be some catch, you claim you can be my dream girl, anything I want you to be you will be. What if I don’t know what I want now?”

She sat back onto her feet, “Well what if I told you I could read your.” She looked up at him as she squeezed his hand. “What if I told you I was different from all the other girls in this world? I’m special, and I think you’re special. I’ll make your dreams come true and one of mine all I want is to have a son. You want a family so we’d both get what we want.”

He stood up letting go of her hand and began pacing around the living room, “Look I know I’m a sucker for a happy ending I mean I want nothing more than my happily ever after. But I don’t even know you, and you’re telling me you will be everything I want. And all you want is a son.” He stopped pacing, crossing his arms he looked down at her, “Why me? It doesn’t sound like you even really want me you just want a son. I mean you promise to make my dreams come true and yet you have not told me a thing about yourself.”

She got up off the floor and walk over to him. “I know you’re scared but that’s ok it will go away soon.” She caressed his cheek with her palm as she continued, “Its ok I’ll be gentle and naughty all at the same time.” She leaned up as she pulled his face towards him. She covered his lips with her finger, “Shh, this will be fun.” As she removed her finger she kissed him, pushing her lips into his as she parted them a bit just enough for her tongue to lick at his lips playfully. She continued as she eased him down to the floor she moved down to his neck now nibbling as she began to unbutton his shirt.

He began to push her off him, “Wait! I don’t want this!” He sat up on the floor.

She moved towards him this time pinning his arms down as she climbed on top of him. “What do you mean you don’t want this, you mind wants it and well…” She giggled before biting her lip as she ground her pelvis into his, “It’s not the only thing that seems to want this either.”

He turned to the side throwing her off him again, he quickly stood up and angrily shouted, “You should leave now! Just because you know what my mind wants, and well I’ve been alone for quite some time now my penis would probably never say no to anything paying attention to me that way, but I know what my heart wants and its not this… So fuck off! I’d rather go through this life alone than settle for not finding someone who I love for being herself and loves me for being me. You might be able to make my dreams come true but my heart wants more than just what my head dreams.”

Pirate Update

2008-01-19T02:44:07Z

Haha so it took a little while since my M3 DS Real didn't come with the install CD but I finally got it up and running so I can now play homebrew and my back-up DS games YAY! haha

My Life's Soundtrack LOL

2008-01-18T02:39:38Z

Posting this on my lj just so I can update/edit it for later uses as I feel like adding to the list, since I liked how its turned out so far hehe.

Past/Present
1) Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody
2) Queen - Another One Bites the Dust
3) The Carpenters - Close To You
4) Beethoven - Symphony No. 9
5) The Doors - People are Strange
6) Alice Cooper - School's Out
7) Green Day - Pop Rocks and Coke
8) Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending
9) Blink 182 - The Party Song
10)Queen - Friends Will Be Friends
11) Foreigner - I want to know what Love is.

Future (So these will probably change when the time comes hehe)
Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
Bob Carlisle - Butterfly Kisses
Guang Liang - Tong Hua

Its funny I added this play list to my ipod last night (minus 11) and it actually brought up a lot of memories (sad/happy/hopeful/disappointed/etc) this morning when I listened to it heading to work. It was weird I mean all these songs have their meanings and I know what they are just from the song titles but I didn't think it would hit me so hard lol I don't know if I can really actually listen to it again haha.

Just some venting -_-

2008-01-18T00:21:46Z

Just needing to vent a bit. Gah so annoyed my friend was feeling like crap cuz she hasn't got her books for the classes (bought em off ebay >.>) and my attempts to make her feel better don't work and end up making her feel worse which has left me feeling like shit atm and not looking forward to having to push my damn car later tonight and probably having to walk a few miles home since the buses won't be running that late... GAH! So not in the mood to do work now :/

Oh well off to listen to Butterfly Kisses for a bit, might leave me clucky but hell that's better than what i'm feeling now and at least that's a happy frustrated feeling -_-.

YAY Pirating! lol

2008-01-17T19:56:14Z

I finally got my M3 DS Real card so now I can play all those "back up" DS games I have :) Now to get my DS back since I left it in my friends car... And figure out how to install everything so I'm set once i get the DS back haha.

Grumbles...

2008-01-16T18:57:17Z

Well semi disappointed just found out I'm gonna have to wait about a month and a half before the next King of Hell volume comes out -_- Haha I guess this is what I get for finally following a manga that hasn't be completed before I started -_- I found some scanlations and its tempting to take a peek since they are up to volume 27 >.> haha but a part of me wants to keep to the translated versions since that's how I started the series. I wonder how long I'll hold out haha.

Random Blogthings

2008-01-15T20:02:12Z

I was bored and did a random Blogthings to keep me from being too bored XD

The Recipe For dreadenkith

3 parts Tease
2 parts Intensity
1 part Originality

Splash of Mania

Chug!

What's the Recipe for Your Personality?

The Recipe For Robert Heck

3 parts Difance
2 parts Flirtation
1 part Drive

Splash of Courage

Finish off with a little umbrella and straw

What's the Recipe for Your Personality?

Bah

2008-01-13T21:39:20Z

Bummed about not going snowboarding this weekend. I think I've become addicted to snowboarding haha I seem to be thinking a lot about it lately. Ugh no car leaves me without the option of going up alone haha though I don't think i'd really enjoy that since I have more fun when I go with my friends... Oh well next weekend I'm going for sure.

Fuck Romance...

2008-01-10T18:37:55Z

I consider myself a hopeless romantic and so do many of the people who know me. It just seems to be my nature but now I think I've lost hope. My heart has been broken again I knew the risk I was taking trying to meet girls for more than just friends but I don't know I guess its not ready to accept the fact that a girl I'd already fallen head over heals for without actually meeting her in person could be so fucking cold when I was honest about have dated a guy out of curiosity.

I don't know anymore I guess I'll just go with my initial instinct and my closest friend's as well. I'm fucking done looking for love let it find me. I'd rather die alone and let go of one of my biggest dreams that to risk getting hurt for being me. Time to focus on me and my friends... heh I guess there's tiny bit of hope my heart seems to jump whenever I think about telling love to fuck off and leave me be.

I feel a bit better just having written this, I guess maybe I just need to vent a little about all this.

New Year, New Resolutions...

2008-01-03T00:59:45Z

Be Happy
Stop looking at porn
Work on overcoming my fear of talking to people over the phone when I don't know them well.
Work on what hopefully is a new relationship in the making.
Finish getting rid of my small keg belly hehe.
Buy another car since my car was totaled.
Visit Europe (Paris in particular).
Get a full time job. (contract jobs are getting old)
Move out of my parents place again and for good.

I think that's all of them... hmm I think I'm gonna be busy this year.

Rain :)

2007-12-18T20:22:19Z

Yesterday was a nice day, slightly making up for the ending to Sunday which has left me without a car. I walked out of the office to see the road with a slight shine and the smell of rain in the air. I was happy, its been so long since I actually walked in the rain and was able to enjoy the rain. The feeling of water splashing on my face and hair as I walked down to the bus stop was nice and refreshing. I was calm and happy the whole time I walked. All I could really think about was that after the accident I was ok and I still could talk to and see my friends. I am sad that I don't have a car but I think its more so because I won't be able to hang out with my friends whenever I randomly feel like it after work now.

" how I hate you...

2007-12-11T23:21:47Z

GAH! stupid " seems to be my coding bane today... I forgot one and it took me 30minutes to find out it was missing and the reason my code was broke -_-

Thinking before I act wouldn't be as funny

2007-12-08T01:02:01Z

So I was just zoning out while at work and I remembered this so I thought I'd share since I couldn't stop laughing when it happened and still makes me laugh a little.

My friends and I were bored and I was in a semi shopping mood so we decided to go somewhere we hadn't been before we went to the Ontario Mills Mall. Its HUGE so when we got there I decided I wasn't in the mood to just walk around I wanted to goof around with my Heeleys. We meet up with with our friend and her boyfriend at Game Works. While there one of my friends decided to play some Maximum Tune 2. When my friend, her boyfriend, and I finally find out where they were I see a stool behind one of the other machines. I ride off towards the stool and jump up and frog leap onto the seat. 'Boy that would look kinda cool if that's all that happened.' So as I land on the stool I under estimated my jump so I'm sitting on the back edge of the stool 'no biggy I hit it at least right?' and I guess I had enough force from rolling up to the stool that i caused it to slide on the waxed tile floor. 'Ok cool I'll slide right next to my friend that will be even cooler. I mean it would look like I totally planned this out all ahead of time and made it look easy' So I'm sliding up to my friend as I start to slow down 'Remember how I didn't long on the stool right?' gravity decides to remind me about not hitting the stool right so I slide right off the edge. 'WTF!?' Next thing I know I'm on the ground on my ass as I realize what happened I'm looking up at the stool laughing. My friend finally catches up asks if I'm alright and then starts laughing when she hears me laughing as I say "Ya..." while I stood back up.

Wedding Bells

2007-12-07T01:50:11Z

It was a sunny day in June, the birds were singing and white puffy clouds danced around in the sky. Guests sat there in a garden of roses surrounding them with tall grass below them as it swayed back and forth in the slight breeze brushing up against their shoes. He stood there in front of everyone in his simple white suit with a black silk shirt partially hidden behind his two button coat, with a small white bow tie and a folded black handkerchief in his coat pocket to accent the inverted color scheme of his suit. With a small smile on his face as he stood there adjusting his cuffs as if he were uncomfortable in the suit, he looked back as he watched her walk towards him down the petal covered path. As she walked down the aisle her simple white dress bounced forward slightly with every step she took. She smiled behind her veil as she looked towards her husband to be, with every step closer she took her smile grew. Once she reached his side she reached out to his hand, she blinked her eyes rapidly trying to keep the tears from rolling down her cheeks. She looked over to him only to see a small tear already making its way down his cheek around his smiling lips, she giggled quietly and let her tears roll down her cheek.

The ceremony went underway, after the priest finished his reading he mentioned that the couple had their own vows they wished to share. She looked into his eyes as they held each other's hand laughing quietly as she wiped away the tears from her eyes, cleared her throat and began, "Today, Cedric, I join my life to yours, not merely as your wife, but as your friend, your lover, and your confidant. Let me be the arms you find comfort in, the shoulder on which you rest your head, your soul mate. With you I will walk my path from this day forward."

As she finished he smiled as a tear rolled down his cheek, he prepared to share his vows with her and then everything went black. She opens her eyes, lifts her head from the bed and looks around. As her vision starts to clear up she realizes that she's in a hospital. Starting to panic slightly she called out "Cedric! Cedric! Where are you!?"

"Shhh!" Her sister whispers calmly stroking her hand as she sits by the bed. "Calm down Lizy, the important thing is you woke up."

Elizabeth sat upright in a panic stricken voice she sputters, "What do you mean that I'd wake up, where is Cedric!?" She lays back down in the bed and nervously looks at her sister as she cries out softly, "What happened!?"

"Well, they aren't quite sure yet since the cops only have what the trucker told them and what they found when they got to the accident. It seems while you two were driving up to the cabin there was a trucker that was coming down the mountain road and his breaks locked up on him as he was turning a blind turn. When he saw you guys in the car he tried to swerve around you but wasn't able to make the turn and the back of the trailer hit the back of Cedric's car and spun it off the road. The cops said that when the paramedics got to you two what they found was Cedric covering your body with pieces of glass and metal all around you two and the car was on fire. You were both unconscious." She pauses for a moment as she sits up in her chair and leans forward.

Before she can continue Elizabeth asks, "What happen to Cedric, is he okay?"

She looks at her sister with sorrow filled eyes and simply looks over to the patient in the next bed with machines surrounding it. "They did the best they could but the doctors say they don't know when or if he'll wake up. The injuries he suffered from the blast damaged parts of his brain They say he's perfectly healthy and his body will recover from the wounds in a few months but don't know when he might wake up."

A year passes by, on what would be their one year anniversary she walks into the hospital room sets her things down and turns on the TV. She carefully lays down on the bed with him avoiding any of the tubes and needles connected to his body. She rests her head on his chest whispering quietly, "You remember this episode right? You its one of your favorites its where..." she trails off as she rests her hand feeling his heart beating below it.

A faint whisper from a groggy voice rings in her head, "This is the episode where Lisa steals the pig with the lawnmower right?" She closes her eyes as a tear drops off her eyelash onto his gown thinking she's dreaming. She feels an arm wrap around her back, she snuggles in closer to the familiar warm embrace. Moments later she realizes she isn't dreaming and that the familiar embrace that she feels is something she hasn't felt in over a year. She looks up to see Cedric looking down at her with a small smile.

Working Title...

2007-12-04T20:32:05Z

Here's a rough draft of the first chapter from a story I've been playing around with for a while in my head. I finally decided to put the idea together into a full story.

Ding! Ding! his phone rang out again as he received another text message. He sighed as he pulled out the keys to his apartment, and muttered under his breath, "Gee, you'd think you'd get tired of spamming me after a few months, why did I tell her I have unlimited texts." He turned the knob and pushed open the door to his apartment. As the door few back he reached out to try and stop it, he exclaimed, "Damn it!" as the door banged against a table behind it. He tossed his keys and phone into a simple glass bowl sitting on the table as he slammed the door shut. He stood there in the dark looking around his small studio apartment, he stopped and focused on the window past his bed. "Okay, I know I didn't open that window..." He took a step back as he scanned the room to see if anything was missing, as he moved back he bumped into what he thought was the door he turned around to reach for the door knob. "Do you mind, those aren't pillows you can rest on." a female voice shrieked as she drew her blade and pressed it against his the inside of his leg. "Now if you don't mind get your face out of my chest, or do you not need those?" He took a step back realizing he hadn't bumped into the door he blushed as he looked back at the woman standing in the dark, his voice cracking a bit, "What are you doing here?" He reached for the light switch, just as he was about to flip the switch she muttered, "I'd prefer you didn't do that... I like the dark better." Having regained more of his composure, "You're one to be making requests! You break into my place and act all calm about it when I find you here!" He flipped the switch as the lights flickered on he continued, "What makes you think I'm going to listen to your requests? You obviously don't want to kill me considering you had a good chance just now. What do you want with me?" She stood there under the light as she sheathed her blade behind her back, "Well aren't you a wisecrack, getting a bit cocky there aren't you? You've been chosen to save the world." She pulled her long hair away from her face as she smiled at him "Its a modest request really, I want you to prove that man is worthy of salvation, that not all hope has been lost, to prove to the others that not all the human race has become consumed with greed." She took a step forward her long heals making shallow clacks as her weight shifted in her boots she lifted her hand and grabbed the boy's chin digging her short red nails into his cheeks, "So what do you say? Save the world or I gut you here and now leaving your insides sprayed about your tiny rat whole of a place you call your home, you decide?" He slapped her hand away freeing his face, "Ha! that's real good, you know I've heard this before... Oh! That's right I wrote a story like this a few years back for a class. It wasn't real then and I'm damn sure it isn't real now." He walked toward his computer and turned it on. "Since you found your way in would you mind showing yourself out, I've got some friends waiting for me to help them out with a quest." She rushed over to him as he turned in his chair to face her, before he could finish blinking his back was pushed up flush against the wall as she held him up by his neck this time her nails digging into his flesh causing blood to trickle out slowly around her fingers. "Look just because he chose to feed you the story of your own destiny doesn't mean he wanted you to piss it away like this. Don't get me wrong he is my master but I won't give it a second thought if I need to kill you for being a fool." She stood there looking up at him as he moved around helplessly trying to free himself. "Now you have a choice to make, this is the last time I will ask you. Will you take up your destiny to prove them wrong, to prove the human race is worthy to exist among us, or do kill you here and now dooming everyone else in this world to slow and painful death?"

She let go of his neck, he dropped to his knees as he hit the floor. Gasping for air he grunted out, "Why would you pick me to save the world? I'm not strong, I haven't had any special training, I don't even think I could defend myself if I ever needed to... What's special about me?" He stood up and leaned against the wall as his breathing finally was slowing down to a regular pace. He looked up at her as he continued, "You give me the choice of saving the world or dieing, you've just now proven I have no chance either way, I mean I couldn't even defend myself against you and you think I'm going to be able to save the world. It seems like you're just toying with me, either way I look at it I'm going to die. So why should I not just have you kill me now and be done with it?" She dropped down to one knee in front of him inches from his face, her breath brushing against his lips as she looked into his eyes, she softly whispers, "What you lack can be gained, what you don't know can be learned, knowing this will you not save the world? If not for all of man kind then what about your friends, can you knowingly accept death know and doom your friends to a death they need not endure? Master said you were chosen for your passion and kind heart. I think he made a mistake tonight I have seen nothing but greed and selfishness from you." She moved back from him, stood up and unsheathed her blades. "So death now is your choice, I guess you pesky humans are nothing more than greedy fools when it comes down to it you care of no one but yourselves." He stood up, grabbed her blades, and pushed them away forcibly, his hands now bleeding, "I choose to die trying, I won't give you the satisfaction of killing me tonight. So what happens now?" She smiled as she flicked her blades to get the blood off them before she sheathed them, she whispered relieved, "Good, now stay close." She stepped up right against him, as she squeezed him against her body she revealed her leathery wings and wrapped them around their bodies. In a moment they vanished from the apartment.

A friend's spin on one of my stories.

2007-11-13T19:15:10Z

This is what my friend came up on a whim of turning the start to a story I'm working on into an erotica.

She rushed over to him as he turned in his chair to face her and before he could blink he found her sitting on his lap wrapping her long legs around himself and the chair. She grabbed the back of his head, amazingly somehow managing to hold onto his short hair and he could feel the nails slightly digging into the back of his skull. She stared straight into his eyes, and held the gaze there for quite some time. He hadn't realized this before, but now noticed that her eyes were soft compared to her tough physique and before he knew it she was talking again. "Look just because he chose to feed you the story of your own destiny doesn't mean he wanted you to piss it away like this. Don't get me wrong, he is my master but I won't give it a second thought if I need to kill you for being a fool." He heard the words, but his fixation was unbearable. Before he knew it, he found his hands holding onto her lower back and started sliding down towards her ass. His cock began to throb as quick fantasies began to flash through his mind and his grip tightened.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" She yelled at him and now tried to push him away. However, now it was his territory, as he held onto her tightly as she tried to push him away and in one swift motion he had picked her up. He now stood there with her legs wrapped around his waist, and the edge of her panties gently resting on the tip of his now hard head. He had lifted her skirt so her bare panties were revealed. At this sudden commotion she was shocked, but more so she felt a surge go through her very bones at the feel of his hard-on gently rubbing her clit from the outside of her panties. She felt herself becoming turned on, her nipples turning hard slowly and her pussy getting wet. He noticed her sudden lack of fight and started to nuzzle the nape of her neck, slowly start kissing her while he started working his hands over her ass and gently guided her vagina back and forth over his cock that stood up straight. He began to carry her over to his bed and put her down on her back, and climbed on top of her while still buried in her neck and was now gently nibbling her and teasing her with his tongue. He felt that his penis was being suffocated by his pants, and that she was hot as hell because he swore he felt heat emitting from her pussy. As he freed one hand from behind her back, he worked trying to unbuckle his belt, only to his surprise she wanted his pants off just as fast. With the work of 3 hands, he managed to free his belt and unbutton his jeans, and she unzipped his pants and tried to take them off while still mesmerized by his amazing lips. Unfruitful, she just shoved him up off of her and sat up, pulling his pants down with might but left his boxers on. She didn't care that his cock was out or not, she just wanted to feel it against her pussy lips. Now pushing him onto his back, she sat on top of him and started to ride his cock through the flimsy boxer cloth, soaking it with her pussy juices. In response, his cock just throbbed, throbbed enough that she felt it and she just forced her pelvis down, his cock snugly fit between her vagina and him. She started to rock her pelvis back and forth, and moans deep within her began to emerge and her pussy was now just dripping wet that it soaked his boxers and began leaking down his leg and wetting the bed.
More horny than ever, he put his hands on her thighs and slid them up, and grabbed her waist and pulled her forward gently bending her forward and causing her hands to land on his chest and he started to rock with her. They looked into each others eyes, but she was unable to keep them open with all the pleasure she felt. He saw her squint as another moan escaped from her lips. "Ohh… Oh god this feels so fucking good…" she moaned, trying to keep her voice down. He felt his cock surge when those words came out. Now her breasts were within his arms reach and he could not wait any longer to grab them. They looked so voluptuous, and tight inside her shirt. She had worn a low cut leather top that zipped up but left her breasts bulging over the top, as if it were one size to small to encase her tits. As he unzipped, he realized she was not wearing a bra under, and they practically flung out at him. As she was still pleasing herself with the feeling of his cock rubbing her clit, her now freed breasts were going up and down along with her motions. He lifted his head forward and started to suck on one of her tits, gently biting her teat which caused her to rub harder and faster. He felt that he was going to explode and bit down a little harder than he thought and she shrieked. "OH MY GOD WHAT THE HELL" she said. He stared up at her, fearing he ruined the moment and that she was gone.

::SLAP:: She slapped him across the face, but not as hard as he imagined it would have been. "You want it rough? I'LL SHOW YOU ROUGH." She said, a stern look in her eyes locked with his. Before he even knew it, she tore off the boxers and removed her leather top. His cock throbbed even more. She saw it, and began to take off her panties, taking off only one side and leaving it tied to her thigh, sticking to her from the wetness. He could see from the dull light a trickle barely forming from her pussy and was about to drip down her inner thigh. She grabbed his cock with both her hands, feeling the heat of it. With the contact of bare skin, he couldn't help himself from moaning aloud. "You like that huh? You like that?" She said, bending down low and began to use the tip of her tongue and licking the rim of his engulfed penis. He moaned even louder. Her tongue made contact with the pool of pre cum, and when she pulled away, a string of cum followed her tongue. He could not peel his eyes away. His hands felt heavy and he just laid there, waiting to take whatever she was going to dish out.

Noticing all the attention on her, she began to work her tongue, now completely licking the head of his cock, leaving no pre cum. She now positioned herself directly over his cock and lowered herself, just inches away between her pussy lips and his cock. She stared at him, as if daring him to make a move, but he wouldn't. She lowered herself even more, ‘til the head of his cock now touching her naked pussy lips and she grabbed the cock and began to move it around. Her pussy juices ran down his silky penis skin and continued its way down ‘til the bed. She drew circles with his cock around her hole, and he could feel her heat. "…Uhhhh… Ohhhhhh…" she moaned, as if moaning to herself. She lifted her left hand and began to grab her breast and squeezing it while now pressing herself harder down ‘til the head of his cock was entering her tight pussy. He couldn't help but thrust forward, trying to envelop his cock completely into her pussy, but right when he moved, she pushed him down hard. Looking slyly at him "Haha, what do you think you're doing..." she asked him. Now he knew what she meant. She was going to tease him until he couldn't take it. He decided to try to take matters into his own hands. He pushed himself up so fast that it knocked her balance down and soon enough she found herself laying on the bed and him on top.

"You were saying…?" He grinned. He locked her legs with his own and now he was on top of her, his cock now resting on the top of her pelvic bone. She tried to flail but he grabbed both her hands and forced them down. She couldn't do a thing; somehow he mustered up strength she was not aware of and now she was the helpless one. He looked down at her, and before she knew it, he moved back and using his hips he directed his cock right at her lips. She stopped flailing and he released her hands. He watched carefully, to make sure she wasn't going to try anything. He moved his cock til his head was starting to enter and she just closed her eyes and arched her back slightly. He knew he had control. He unlocked her legs and slowly started to penetrate her tight pussy. Feeling his large hard cock penetrate, she couldn't help but moan, ten times louder than before. "Oh…Oh…OH MY GOD.." she exclaimed as all 8 inches went fully into her. He couldn't help moaning as well, her pussy was so tight and wet! After burying his cock into her, he felt her squeezing her muscles inside as if trying to milk him for all his cum. "Oh god don't stop.. FUCK ME" she said. Managing to grin, he said "Now I'll show you rough." She looked at him only to feel him pull out and slam into her waiting pussy. It sent shivers through her spine and she just screamed out loud "OH MY GOD" and he began to go in and out of her, slowly at first and then began to pump faster and faster into her. With each thrust she couldn't help but moan. He was pumping and pumping, each thrust harder then the last. As he was thrusting deep into her pussy walls, he bent forward and grabbed her bouncing breasts and she practically wailed. "YES! YES! YES! DON'T STOP! DON'T STOP!…" Feeling every inch of his cock slide in and out and feeling the bulging veins made her close to orgasm. His sac was slapping heavily on her ass, which felt so good. "Oh my god I'm going to cum!!" she shrieked out, now rocking her hips and meeting each of his thrusts with hers.

He stopped thrusting and pulled out of her. "What?! What are you doing? Don't stop please don't stop!" she begged. He bent down and started to lick her pussy, using his tongue to play all over her clit. "Ohhh... that's… good…" she moaned and she closed her eyes. He jerked his cock while he licked her pussy, digging deep into her vagina and hungrily lapping up all her leaking juices. She felt her urge to cum, come back again but before she knew it he slammed into her pussy with his cock. "Oh..My…god I'm going to cum!!" She said again, this time the urge just about to peak. In a moment, her pussy clenched onto his cock so tightly and her back arched up, making her breasts slide to the sides and her pussy now leaking more then ever. Gasping between moans, "HARDER! FUCK ME HARDER AND FASTER" she screamed out, her eyes shut tightly and her hands pulling at the bed sheets practically tearing them apart. As she demanded, he carried out her wishes. He started fucking her faster and harder, grabbing her lower arched back and began to thrust as hard as he could, feeling his own penis throbbing hard and he was gunna cum. "I'm cumming…" He mentioned through gritted teeth and his load just shot out deep into her pussy. He moaned just as loud as he pumped more and more, and his cum just shot out of him filling her up with his cum. It was leaking out but he still slammed himself into her, thrusting harder and harder and harder ‘til he was milked completely by her eager pussy. She felt the hot stream of cum inside her and that brought upon her second and third orgasm between all the thrusting and the feeling of his cum inside of her. "OH MY GODDD" she moaned so loud. Finally, with his sac completely emptied out, he released her back and collapsed on his bed next to her. They both passed out until the next day.

Beauty is only Skin Deep

2007-11-09T20:25:30Z

There was a full moon out tonight almost as bright as if it were day outside. Inside of a bookstore in the corner of the coffee shop area there sat a young man in a chair with his legs up on the seat so his knees pressed up against his chest. He sat there reading a book that rested on his knees. He had shoulder length brown hair he kept pulled back in a small pony tail at the base of his neck with only his bangs hanging loose in front of his thin round reading glasses that made his round face look pudgy. They seemed to accent his dark brown eyes. Across the café area there was a girl sitting in a chair in front of a small table where she had her laptop. She typed rapidly, the keys clicked and clacked softly as the sound was carried across the café. It seemed as though she was writing a story as she took few pauses as she typed, it was almost as if she was inspired.

He lifted his eyes from his book for a moment and took a glance around the room as he sipped his hot chocolate. He didn't pay any real attention to any of the other people in the area they all seemed to be doing their own thing. As he put down his hot chocolate he finally saw her sitting at the table at the other end of the café. She sat there slightly slouched in the wooden chair as she typed away. She had long dark brunette hair that fell over her shoulders; her long hair accented her oval face nicely. She had dark amber eyes that sat in the center of her face behind a pair of square glasses. Her eyes slightly squinted as they moved rapidly left and right as she stared at her laptop screen. He smiled slightly as he looked at her eyes as they slid back and forth thinking to himself, "What beautiful eyes they look so sincere and happy…" As he looked on he blushed lightly realizing he had been staring for a while now. He tilted his head back down toward his book, pushed his glasses back into place on his nose and continued to read his book. He struggled to find his place on the page, he finally found it and continued on, but quickly stopped. Without moving his head he shifted his eyes up again and took another glance at the woman's eyes across the room. He looked back down at the book trying to appear as though he were still reading after a couple of seconds he turned the page to keep his charade going.

After a couple more glances a woman that was sitting between him and his fixation stood up. She caught his attention as she started moving slowly towards him. She was a slender woman wearing a white dress shirt with the ends tied together under her chest, which pushed her breasts together making them seem even more voluptuous than they naturally were. Her shirt was matched by a rather short black skirt which ended just above her knees.

She sat on the table in front of his chair crossing her legs in a way that pushed her skirt slightly, the hem stopping just at her lap revealing even more of her long slender smooth legs. "So I noticed you looking at me once in a while and I thought I'd come over here and start up a conversation since I thought you were cute and might just be shy."

He closed his book around his right index finger leaving it there to mark his place. He gave an uneasy smile, "Hi there… Um, I wasn't staring at you."

She laughed and leaned in closer, "Its ok I'm used to people staring at me after all I know I'm beautiful. So do you come here often?"

"No not really I just came in for some chocolate while I read my book." Lifting his cup up showing it to her just before taking a sit of the now room temperature hot chocolate. He looked past her to see if the woman with dark amber eyes was still at her table typing away. "Um I don't want to sound harsh but I'm not really interesting in talking to you right now."

Slightly annoyed with a boastful tone in her voice she retorted, "How can you not be interested in talking with me!? I'm the most beautiful woman in the café. You aren't gay are you? It would be a shame such a pretty boy to be gay after all I still think you are cute."

He cleared his throat a bit, "Well if that makes you feel better then yup, I'm gay. Do you mind I'd like to get back to my book? Don't get me wrong you are very pretty, I'm just not interested in you."

Now angry from being brushed off so easily, "You can't seriously be saying you'd pass up a change to go out with me. You can't be that stupid."

He looked passed her once again to check on the other woman. Thinking to himself, "Damn how self absorbed can she be that she still hasn't gotten I'm not interested?" He noticed that the woman with those beautiful dark amber eyes he had been fixated on most of the night had gotten up from the table and was now walking towards the store entrance. "Look I know you think you're beautiful and all that because you look good on the outside but seriously you are one shallow self absorbed bitch and the way you've spoken to me tonight well honestly there's no way I'd ever go out with you, no amount of money would get me to agree to a date. Hell, if we were the last two people on earth then the human race would go extinct. You are one of the ugliest people if not possibly even the ugliest person I've ever met. You think looks on the outside make you beautiful but that's not everything, your personality, your attitude, and for me eyes are a big win over on weather I think you are beautiful or just another pretty woman. You have cold empty blue eyes, that carry a very princess type of attitude, which you have lived up to quite well so far." He got up from his chair, bent over to pick up his cup and leaned in towards the woman's left ear as she stared at him with a lost look on her face. He whispered into her ear, "I was staring at the woman sitting behind you the whole time, honestly I didn't even notice your existence until you got up and walked towards me." He stood upright now and made for the entrance of the store tossing his cup in the trash bin as he rushed out of the store to try and find the woman he had been staring at the whole night.